i know who i want to be.i am almost exactly that person. i am living my life and imagining the changes. not changes.. extensions. i want to express myself freely. i do that everyday. the clothes i wear are always significant to me. i never buy something unless it connects with a memory or expresses something i want to express. except some days i can't find the outfit in my closet...those are the days i am uncomfortable with myself. i can't buy all the things i want all the time. but i still do a pretty good job being and showing me. white hair. check. ah it makes me proud when i look in the mirror. i don't drink soda and i don't eat meat. self control is a really self fulfilling thing i practice. of course aside from that i don't do drugs. i'm not against them for the most part...its whatever. but it isn't for my body. something about the person i want to be is that i want to be able to run for miles on end without stopping. i need to keep trying. i could count the miles i ran this week on one hand. i would like to add service to my life. i want to devote some time to helping others. i have done small things which is good for now. in my future, though, i plan on traveling to a place that can use my help to make lives better. and one day when i have money of my own (considering that right now my bank account balance is about $8.15) i will always have some to give to people in need. i want to plant some trees...pick up garbage maybe? something to make our beautiful Earth a little cleaner. ive been called a tree hugger/dirty hippie. i love our planet and i want it to be perfect. i need to help because i don't think i really do right now. i'm not an excessive user and i try to conserve, but i would like to actually give back, as apposed to only taking a little. as far as material things go, before college i want to buy a nice camera to capture every moment with. that's my big purchase goal. my bedroom is perfect just how i wanted it. ikea i love you. big weight off my shoulders. (: the reason for the snowy road picture is this. i snowboard, but i snowboard poorly. im going to get decent this winter so i can really say its something i do. i love winter, which reminds me. its almost fall. oh i love fall. it's my season.
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