"don't make decisions when you're angry; don't make promises when you're happy."
i'm not sure who said that first, but in my case it's the truest thing ever. anyway, tonight i saw scott pilgram vs. the world at a drive in with alyx, zach, kaidee, and olivia. i loved it. most definitely the best movie i've seen in a long time. i would like to own it. i got home a minute ago and am now listening to the nightmare before christmas soundtrack and looking at beautiful photography. basically this is what i prefer to do in the late night hours when i'm alone.
i had a realization today. i was driving to my great grandma's birthday party and i had the coraline soundtrack playing as i went through the green hills and windy roads. the music along with the environment just gave me chills. it made me think back to when the movie coraline first came out, and how amazing i felt about it. that movie is just indescribable. henry selick never fails to make me love life a million times more than i did before i watched his creations. anyways, i thought about how i was in a serious relationship at that time, and how i discovered and experienced a lot of fantasticly magical things while i was with that boy. i then realized that all of those magical things that i discovered were not directly or at all related to him. i was just with him at the time... before when i would listen to a certain song or think about an experience i had loved, i would get sad because he was no longer there to give me that feeling. but he had nothing to do with those experiences. it was separate. my mind somehow completely combined the two. all this time i have been relating the fun times/music/movies/ that i found and stuff....directly to him being my boyfriend. oh how it feels to break that subconscious link. my dreary thoughts of loss have vanquished. (kind of)
it's my inspirations and experiences that made me feel whole and in love.
