Friends

old friends.

i love them. 

LIGHTS

lights. oh how i can't wait to meet her next time she comes to salt lake. if perfection had a name ^^^^

i know who i want to be.

i am almost exactly that person. i am living my life and imagining the changes. not changes.. extensions. i want to express myself freely. i do that everyday. the clothes i wear are always significant to me. i never buy something unless it connects with a memory or expresses something i want to express. except some days i can't find the outfit in my closet...those are the days i am uncomfortable with myself. i can't buy all the things i want all the time. but i still do a pretty good job being and showing me. white hair. check. ah it makes me proud when i look in the mirror. i don't drink soda and i don't eat meat. self control is a really self fulfilling thing i practice. of course aside from that i don't do drugs. i'm not against them for the most part...its whatever. but it isn't for my body. something about the person i want to be is that i want to be able to run for miles on end without stopping. i need to keep trying. i could count the miles i ran this week on one hand. i would like to add service to my life. i want to devote some time to helping others. i have done small things which is good for now. in my future, though, i plan on traveling to a place that can use my help to make lives better. and one day when i have money of my own (considering that right now my bank account balance is about $8.15) i will always have some to give to people in need. i want to plant some trees...pick up garbage maybe? something to make our beautiful Earth a little cleaner. ive been called a tree hugger/dirty hippie. i love our planet and i want it to be perfect. i need to help because i don't think i really do right now. i'm not an excessive user and i try to conserve, but i would like to actually give back, as apposed to only taking a little. as far as material things go, before college i want to buy a nice camera to capture every moment with. that's my big purchase goal. my bedroom is perfect just how i wanted it. ikea i love you. big weight off my shoulders. (: the reason for the snowy road picture is this. i snowboard, but i snowboard poorly. im going to get decent this winter so i can really say its something i do. i love winter, which reminds me. its almost fall. oh i love fall. it's my season.

end of jabber.

Best Friends

BEST FRIENDS.

 if only all our moments were on video. i have this undying feeling that alyx needs to be on snl right now, with me and sarah back stage to give her inspiration. with us three together you never know what to expect.

the inside jokes are everlasting and evergrowing. this happens when you have been friends as long as we have. we have been through so much together and gotten in so many fights that i think we have finally realized we will all ALWAYS be friends and there is no point in trying to deny it.

jokes?

from back in the old days up until today:

hi, i'm abraham alyx. and i'm lincoln lennyx.

EMOS UNITE

the hot chick is our national movie

i have my magic stew pot!

but ms haight, i don't have an independent reading buuuook

you're a nerrrrrrrd

drop kick the caterpillar!

uuuuuuaaaagghhghghgh plsslkf pppzxccvxz (exaggerating our throw up sounds)

ich lerne doitch in mine doitcha classe. das ist nicht gut. ich nicht like mein lehre

everything mr pope ever did.

sarah trying to speak german

tonight, we're breakin the law!

best friends. forever. don't ruin this perfect day.

sarah and alyx if you remember more text them to me and i'll add them.

Backyard Things

Camping?

we wanted a fire to make smores. but since it had just rained...we had no luck. the storm chasin' crew had to cook our smores in doors. still fun and delicious.

Full Circle

as of late.

lately, the universe has been taking me full circle. it may be subconscious and completely my fault that the same old stuff is popping up. i guess i need to send the universe a message letting it know i'm ready to step forward to conquer new trials and happiness.

every night.

i come home feeling like this. like um.... my life is hopeless. i'm so lonely. my ex boyfriends from when i was five in junior high are awful. half the people i know think lies about me. all i am is judged. it's hard handling certain things on your own. and i am entirely on my own. i'm like the girl in beetle juice when she's writing her suicide letter thats how cool i am! and what sucks is when people get like me they do things to make them feel better. i personally am not a self destructive person. so i can run.... but that high lasts about ten minutes after i'm done. i can try and pretend like things will get better. i do that every morning. i wake up like yeah life rools! at the end of the day i'm like..

effffffff.