Fall

Sweaters, sweaters
Boots, boots
Skinny pants, skinny pants
Mittens, gloves
Old beanies, new beanies
Warm drinks
And some winter lovin.

Needing a Job

I want a job. Not just for the money, but for the experience and for the friends. It's almost pathetic how much I miss the girls I worked with at Watson's Orthodontics and everyone at Kneaders. I freaking miss Jessica, Ethan, Ali, Mitch, and everyone. I really just want a job. Come on universe, why don't I have one? Have I not been looking hard enough? I guess I can look even harder.....I don't know when to give up. I don't think I'm going to though. I want a job. I'm ready to work as well as be in school. I know for a fact I can handle both at once. I would really like to be given a chance.

I Am Lucky

I want to say it, and I don't know where else to say it. I am so lucky to have Ryan. He is the greatest part of my life. We get along so well. He is everything I could ask for and more. These last two months away from him have been a huge kicker and assurance of my feelings for him. These last three days together have been like a dream....yeah that's cheesy. I don't know how else to put it though. I wish there wasn't such a time crunch with us, but I am so grateful for the time we do have. Sometimes it's hard to believe that he is actually mine.. after everything that happened with us in the past I never would have expected this. That is one reason why the future scares me. You cannot predict what is going to happen...but as long as I stay on the path I want to be on I know it will work out the way it is supposed to. What we have is really awesome so I'm going to make it stick.

Abundance

Remember when I used to spend at the least $85 dollars per hair cut? And when I was either frying my skin for a hundred dollars a month or bronzing it once a week for $30? Remember when I had to buy gas at least once a week and my tank was always running low? Isn't it crazy how I had a job but I never had enough money? First of all, I like my look twice as much as I did when I was a blonde and neither my skin nor my hair are suffering daily. I am so happy to know what my natural hair color is. It makes me feel super Scottish, which I am. Green eyes, freckles, and light brown hair with that tint of red. I might not have a lot of money but somehow I have everything I need and more. A job will come, I just have to keep trying. But right now nothing is wrong. I have an abundance of everything. I have the things I need, people who love me, and am receiving a wonderful education right across the street.

What I Miss About Home

Things I miss about home:
The streets
The Sugar House dollar theater
The mountains
Alchemy
Green House (I'll admit it)
Gateway
My bank
Kneaders
Jordan Commons
Murray Park
Downtown in general- especially at night
My bed and shower
Michelle's baking
9th and 9th window shopping
The concert venues
Ryan's hizzle
The stop light by my house

and of course-
My family, Ryan, Alyx, Sara, Tan-tan and Breck-breck, and everyone at Kneaders