I don't miss high school. I would never want to go back. But I have an ache in my stomach for all the memories and friends that were once a part of the daily life. It's so different now. Reuniting with old friends is fun but it will never be the same as it was when we were little tikes. I miss my friends, our sleepovers and talks about life, boys and Harry potter. I miss haileys bug. I miss breakfast at Sarah's. I miss me and Alyx almost hating each other because we had to be together everyday. I miss meeting up with the guys. I miss staying out all night torturing myself with tiredness just so I could stay with the group. I miss all the mistakes I made. I miss how annoying we all were. I miss my expressiveness.
I miss sitting on the edge of the bed I am in now taunting Ryan that I would touch his computer screen and get finger prints on it. I miss him showing me music and then watching a favorite movie with him. I miss our trips to ikea and the concerts we went to. I miss our talks. I miss hurting for him because I could never have him. All of this in high school before we ever even hit the surface of our relationship.
I miss how big everything felt.