Sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Sad.
Obviously I'm doing something wrong. I don't believe in the idea of "I'll be happy when..." I believe in finding happiness in my current situation. But my current situation was my current situation five months ago. I really need a change. I need it so bad. I can't live like this anymore. The only thing I look forward to everyday is running. When I'm done running I don't know what to do with myself. SUU has educated me and I have become a more healthy person. I have discovered new music and bought some new clothes. But my schedule remains. I eat, study, workout, and sleep. I am lonely all the time and I don't know where to go. It feels like I am tied to this campus. There is nothing outside of it. I miss being able to drive to my moms and cry in her arms. I miss my best friends. I am failing at keeping myself happy. I'm failing at being okay with being alone. I want to go home.