Lennyx

Someone shoot me. I won't die because my cold won't let me do anything I want to do. As a result of my condition, I will type the snippets of thoughts I have tonight. I can't sleep because I can't breath. And as much as I love not being able to hear, taste, or talk.....I am drowning in my own self pity. Some nights I just think of awesome things I have the capacity to do, but I don't turn them into reality. Tonight it was because I had work and am sick. I'll save the day dream for another day. One thing that has definitely been taking over my brain is the question of why some people cannot be single for more than a week. They choose to have countless relationships and somehow get the idea that each one is the real thing. They center their lives around one person...and don't seem to get anywhere...ever. It doesn't seem healthy to me. Cycles aren't paths, they are traps. I don't find clinging to be healthy. New subject! Is it weird that I have Lights' video blogs practically memorized? It's only because I seriously enjoy some of her background music. Once again, she's the most amazing person ever. I would give anything to meet her. I don't think there's anything I wouldn't skip out on if the opportunity came. I just connected some thoughts. I've been reading about stuff like Buddhism and Taoism lately, and I have had a problem with one of the ideas in Buddhism. They say that ambition and passion is not necessary. Like you should cut out all the garbage, but that too? There is a difference between being passionate and being clingy. You know? Passion doesn't fog your mind, it inspires you. That's why, I guess, I favor Taoism. It is about balance, clarity of purpose and of mind, realization. Now that my cold is seriously starting to hurt, I think I might try to go to bed. I should note that I am grateful for my health. However much I exaggerate my state, I'm lucky to feel the way I do. Health is everything. I hope Cory is feeling okay. I can't wait until he's cured and is back to his old lifestyle.