this is for you, not for me. the secret really works world! read about it or watch the movie...seriously... it works. my life has proven it time and time again. the universe gives you what you focus on. another thing though. being open to energy and meditation is something to try. this month i've done an art meditation and a reiki session. not because i think i need therapy, but because clearing things up that are in the depths of your soul is kind of fun. peace yos.