A piece of my personal journal

Journals are so awesome, and I'm grateful for that young women leader who gave me mine three years ago! I started summer before sophomore year, and it's very interesting to see how I grow. If you don't have one, start one! If you blog....you probably do. Seriously, I love preaching to the choir. 

I would die
If I were in the same room as these people. The Academy Awards are so beautiful, like most award ceremonies. I love how special it is to cinema. I love watching this with my brother because we are in love with all the same people. And the auto tuned song between Ron and Hermione was....amazing.

I should say,
When I rant about people and complain about my friends, I exaggerate my real feelings. On a day-to-day basis I have to sensor myself because I can easily become hot headed and freak out over little things. Occasionally, words just come out of my mouth that are being fueled by this strange need for that fired up feeling. I get angry so easily! My friends are amazing and I love them with all my heart. I'll admit I mostly have this problem with my guy friends. I am unnecessarily defensive over everything. When my head is clear, and I've had a chill pill, I will always say they're awesome and it's unconditional.

LIGHTS
i really can't wait for the new record. XD

Dreams (my shoes)

i want to
make life perfectly wild

And freak yes. I can't wait to get the mark tattooed THIS JULY. Everyday gets better and better. I'm becoming more free and more powerful. Next month I will be working in the office that gave me my braces. Like wow; I can do anything. I strive toward finding the balance so I can do it all. I want to contribute to society, help other nations, build my own personal endurance, and gain a greater education. Progression makes me happy. Progression and peace of mind. and...electronic music. mmmmmmm. the kind that sounds like the sun and moon are smiling to each other.. not the kind that sounds like sweaty kids are smoking cigarettes while performing awkward hand motions.

"All experience is preceded by mind,
Led by mind,
Made by mind,
Speak or act with a peaceful mind,
And happiness follows
Like a never-departing shadow."

"The mind, hard to control.
Flighty- alighting where it wishes
One does well to tame.
The disciplined mind brings happiness."

"Those who
Fully cultivate the Factors of Awakening,
Give up grasping,
Enjoy non-clinging,
And have destroyed the toxins,
Are luminous,
And completely liberated in this life."

-Buddha

Yin and Yang

Overpraising the gifted leads to contentiousness. Overvaluing the precious invites stealing. Craving the desirable loses contentment. The natural person desires without craving and acts without excess. By not doing, everything is done.

Keep filling your bowl,

and it will spill over.

Keep sharpening your knife,

and it will blunt.

Keep hoarding gold in your house,

and you will be robbed.

Keep seeking approval,

and you will be chained.

The Great Integrity leads to actualization, never over fulfillment.

Happy Valentines,

My family had a party to celebrate Valentines Day tonight. Of course it was awesome and filled with laughter. Towards the end we decided that for the holiday we were all going to grab blank sheets of paper, write our names on them, and pass them around. Everyone in the room wrote on everyone else's paper something they like about them. We all had a full page. This is just another reason why my family is amazing and I love them.

Now on actual Valentines Day, today, me and Brecken went to The Cheese Cake Factory. We waited for two hours to be seated and ventured through the mall. I adore him. HAPPY SEAGULLS AWARENESS DAY

Humanities 1st paper: My Own Myth on Creation

Before there was time, there was a white space. It had no sides, top, or bottom. Before there was time, there was energy. It was a small dot; you could hardly see the speck in the whiteness. The energy was like a tiny fire with unimaginable potential. It was too powerful to stay so small. The speck exploded, and out went stripes of yellow and purple. The stripes expanded out through the whiteness, and like a paper being ripped, there was sky peaking through. The sky was black and being dashed harshly with color. Stars filled the sky and planets formed from matter being created in a speed not tamable by our human eyes.

            The universe was the place where everything that existed would live. The job of the newly formed universe would be to create balance within itself. Everything would be born, grow, change, mold, and eventually, everything would die. At this point, there weren’t very many “things”. There was a planet somewhere in the never-ending universe that was placed in the ideal environment. Life could, and would, exist here. This was of course the Earth. Over time, the Earth prospered in every way. Plants, animals, oceans, deserts, mountains, and valleys were formed and evolved. Men and women were the most important and complicated creature that was brought into being. The human could think and learn in ways that any other animal could never.

            Our universe is like a perfect symphony, constantly being conducted, consistent with all happenings in time. Ever since time started after the explosion of energy, life has been moving forward. Time never goes backward, and even if it did, we could never know how that energy got into the nothingness. Time didn’t exist then. 

an off the beat panorama of my room today

do you believe in beauty? freedom? truth? love?

see you can't fool us; you're the voice of the

children of the revolution

i am a tragedy.

i'm not going to tell the reasons why,
wind through my perspective

things on the mind,
like how i am SO FREAKING EXCITED to get my first tattoo. omggggg. you know when you always knew you wanted something but then BAM it just hits you that you're getting it and it's going to be amazing and unreal? yes, that is how i feel. and my life journey will bring more. it's too great. i have had a self-debate going on for a few years on whether i am one to ink my body. well you know what, i am. i don't believe it is immoral. i believe it is a personal choice that hurts no one, and gives me boldness. i feel a hot desire to express what i am most passionate about, and some of those things i do want to tattoo, as they are already a mental part of me.
something else: i want to go to a zoo on the east coast, an off-broadway in my own backyard salt lake, an art gallery in a new city, finish a project i can be proud of, trudge through a jungle, stay somewhere that needs me, attend a concert in toronto, or go camping in southern utah. i want to drink hot chocolate in switzerland, jog on my college campus, read on an unfamiliar beach, or dive through the sky. i want to enjoy a meal in paris, tour my way through italy, breath the cold air and carve down a mountain, sit and lather in the gray of london, hike to the top of the world, or observe an awesome aquarium.

aw, things.