for me to do what i want to do without somebody making me feel completely inferior, or like what i am isn't what i should be. maybe it's myself seeing me this way. i just really wish i had no need for anything primitive; like food. it sounds ridiculous. i don't understand though how some people seem to have the perfect balance in life. i want that balance so bad, i obsess over it. i want to cleanse, detox, exercise, and create. i want to let go of complication and anything unnecessary. somehow i can't ever seem to be good enough for myself. i can't like a guy, i can't eat a hamburger, i can't let myself go. i need to tighten my screws until i can look at myself without judging everything i am.
