http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJYho56INKU&feature=related COOL ^^^^^^^^^^

highschool and time does change a person. as a sophmore with dark brown hair, i had an amazing boyfriend who i spent all of my time thinking about. i was fifteen and life was different. i had an all preppy attire, straightened my hair, and wore black eyeliner. i was naive to real high school drama and what rumors could really do to a person. Now, being where i am today, i'm making my way to having totally white hair (one more appointment will get me there (: finally) and as more days pass my makeup is becoming almost nonexistant. the clothes i wear have to do with expressing my personal motives, my past, my interests, and anything else i can see in a shirt or pair of shoes. i've banned myself from most of the stores at the mall, and i dont own a pair of denim jeans. im no longer with that super hawt man toy i onced owned. im still mixed up about that relationship and im waiting for things in the love department to become clear. i am a victim of rumors and mean people drama which completely sucks. all i can do now is join the cross country team, dye my hair, help out the community, and move onward. self improvement is my main goal and i am doing everything it takes to reach my full potential, which i'll be striving toward my entire life.

i will be attending this concert april 12th and i cant even describe to you how excited i am. i went to owl city's last concert here and he's amazing but lights wasn't there! LIGHTS is my idol and i hope so bad that i get to meet her...trust me if i do there will be pictures up

this is me being a lava head

i just have to say..livelavalive forever, even though mitchell's old videos are funnier than the new. http://www.youtube.com/user/livelavalive

it's true and you know it. and if you don't know it you're dead to me

“You end up attracting to you the predominate thoughts you’re holding in your awareness" please...someone tell me how to truly customize my blog. it bothers me deeply that i cannot. anyway, right now im just in a total state of..stuckness? i had to drop most of the people i called my friends.. which is a long story.. its spring break and all im doing is ignoring phone calls. my life seems to be indifferent towards me, and the universe seems to not care to give me anything new that is positive. everyday i am trying to start over, and by the time i go to sleep i feel the same as i did the day before. i am utterly stuck. i usually have someone to turn to.. a boy? i have none of those. i have myself. out of the six billion people in the world. i have one to count on, and that is me. i wonder how many other people have my same problem. and how is it possible?

I'm going to be making two posts today. i have been sixteen since july of last year and i still dont have a drivers license. why? because i failed drivers ed. why? because driving scares me. why? i guess i dont trust myself as much as i should. im in a private driving school now and i will have my license within the next two weeks. it has pretty much sucked not having a license this whole year but on the plus side it shows how many people really care... and i have a lot of friends anxious for me to drive! im stoked....and i have my first "observation" tonight. i sit in a car for two hours while another student drives. anyway, this post is for my future children to read just incase they are lazy in their drivers ed class. dont fail.

i drink tea, mostly green tea, because it fills my soul with splender. i am currently doing a cleanse involving green tea so it's a win win thirty days of my life. i am in love with owl city and light's music. i scrutinize everything that catches my eye. i grew up with vegan grandparents who lived off of art and their religion. and parents that were quite opposite of that. i have made more mistakes this year than i would like to admit. i appreciate self-inflicted innocence. this post is just to show you a little bit of who i am before i actually figure this all out. http://twitter.com/lennyxjade <<<